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Adam’s Reflection: The Love That Never Left

Adam’s Reflection: The Love That Never Left

Before Emma came back into his life… Adam had already lived through love, loss, and the quiet realization that moving on isn’t always as simple as it seems.


After Emma and I broke up in December of ’93, I didn’t think I would ever love another girl.

Emma was one of a kind. Smart, funny, beautiful… and she liked me for me. That kind of thing sticks with you.

For a while, I didn’t even try. But eventually, life nudges you forward whether you’re ready or not. I started dating again, though it never felt easy. I kept comparing everyone to her, and no one really stood a chance.

My buddy Ryan used to tell me to just keep going on dates—that eventually, I’d find someone.

He wasn’t wrong.

I did find someone. Actually… I found two.

The first was Alisha. That relationship didn’t end well. It taught me a lot about trust, and about paying attention to the things you don’t want to see. Let’s just say… it left its mark.

And then there was Dara.

Dara was different.

In some ways, she reminded me of Emma—blonde hair, blue eyes, that same kind of easy smile that could pull you in without trying. She was driven, and she knew exactly what she wanted out of life.

We met in 2005. I was thirty-two. She was twenty-five.

At the time, I didn’t think much about the age difference. It didn’t feel like it mattered. We got along, we made each other laugh, and for the first time in a long time, things felt… steady.

Comfortable.

Like maybe this was what moving on was supposed to feel like.

I really thought I might marry her.

We talked about it. Not in a rushed way, but in that quiet, natural way where it just seems like the next step.

But somewhere along the way, I realized we weren’t in the same place.

I had already built the life I wanted. I was ready to settle into it, to share it with someone.

Dara was just getting started.

She had goals she hadn’t reached yet, dreams she still needed to chase—and I respected that. I really did.

But respect doesn’t always make things line up.

And in the end… it wasn’t about something going wrong.

It was about something never fully clicking into place.

Maybe I should’ve known from the very beginning.

I remember the day I met Dara.

She was working part-time at a store in the local mall, and I was on my usual UPS route, dropping off packages like I had done a hundred times before.

Nothing about that day should’ve stood out.

But it did.

I walked into the store and saw her right away. She was behind the counter, looking a little unsure of herself, like she was still figuring things out.

Later, I’d find out it was her first day.

She looked up at me and smiled.

ā€œHi.ā€

There was something about the way she said it—simple, but genuine.

ā€œHey,ā€ I said, setting the box down on the counter. ā€œI’ve got a delivery. Do you have anything going out today?ā€

She hesitated for a second, then let out a small laugh. ā€œI’m not sure, actually. It’s my first day.ā€

Before I could respond, Brooklyn—my cousin—came walking out from the back.

ā€œHey, Adam,ā€ she said, like she had been expecting me. She probably saw me on the camera. ā€œLooks like you’ve met our newest employee. This is Dara.ā€

Dara smiled again, a little more confidently this time. ā€œHi.ā€

I smiled back, probably more than I needed to.

Brooklyn shook her head slightly and turned back toward the stockroom. ā€œNo outgoing packages today,ā€ she called over her shoulder. ā€œBut we’ll have some tomorrow.ā€

Dara nodded. ā€œSo… I guess you’ll be back?ā€

ā€œYeah,ā€ I said. ā€œI’m on this route all week.ā€

ā€œGood,ā€ she said, almost without thinking. Then she caught herself and smiled. ā€œI mean… we’ll probably have something ready by then.ā€

I laughed. ā€œI’ll hold you to that.ā€

I finished up, gave Brooklyn a quick wave, and headed back out into the mall.

It should’ve ended there. Just another stop on my route.

But as I stepped away, I glanced back.

Dara was still standing behind the counter… watching me.

Brooklyn was saying something to her, probably explaining how things worked, but Dara’s attention wasn’t fully on her.

And I remember thinking—

that wasn’t going to be the last time I walked into that store.

I never forgot about Emma during those years.

I wondered how she was. If she was happy. If she ever thought about me the way I still found myself thinking about her.

I knew she was still in Boston. I was too.

There were a couple of times I thought I saw her—from a distance, across a street, in passing. Just enough to make me stop for a second and wonder if it was really her.

I thought about going over. Saying hi.

But I didn’t.

Some things… you just know better than to disturb.

She had her life.

And I knew where her heart had settled… and it wasn’t with me.

And I told myself that was enough.

Even years later, when I was asked to reach out to her again… I told myself nothing had changed.

That it would just be a conversation. A simple hello.

But if I’m being honest…

the few times I had seen her before that—

that should’ve told me everything I needed to know.

Because no matter how much time had passed…

it never really felt like anything between us had.

I just hadn’t let myself admit it.


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Emma’s Diary – June 25, 1990

Emma’s Diary – June 25, 1990

Some memories don’t fade… they linger in the quiet moments.

In this diary entry from 1990, Emma reflects on love, music, and emotions she thought she had left behind.

Inspired by ā€œIf Wishes Came Trueā€ by Sweet Sensation: YouTube Video


Emma’s diary entry scene with candlelight and journal reflecting on first love and memories in 1990

Some memories don’t fade… they just get quieter.

June 25, 1990

Dear Diary,

Today I cried.

Like… really cried. Not just a little.

And I don’t even know why it hit me like that.

I turned on MTV, and there he was.
Josh.

Blue eyes. That smile. His hair all curly like it used to be.
He looked the same… but also not.

They were interviewing Block 213, and I just kind of froze. I didn’t even change the channel. I couldn’t.

I don’t know why.

I mean… I’m with Adam now. I’m supposed to be over all of that.

But then the interview ended, and a song came on.
If Wishes Came True.

I almost changed it. I really did.

But I didn’t.

And I think that’s when everything just… hit me.

I just sat there listening, and all I could think about was him.
About us.

And then I started crying, and I couldn’t stop.

It’s been almost a year since I’ve seen him. Not really seen him.
The Sunday dinners stopped, and Mom said it was because he’s on tour, but… I don’t know. It feels like more than that.

I miss those dinners.
I miss Mrs. McGuire.
I miss all of them.

I miss him.

And I feel so bad even writing that.

Because Adam is so sweet.
He’s good to me, and he makes me happy.

And I do love him. I really do.

But it’s just… different.

I don’t think I ever stopped loving Josh.
I think I just got used to him not being here.

And now I feel horrible for crying over someone I’m not even supposed to have anymore.

I wish I didn’t feel like this.

But I do.

Anyway, Adam is coming over soon.

I just needed to get this out.

My eyes are probably so puffy.

Hopefully he won’t notice.

…Yeah, right.

He’ll definitely notice.

I should probably find some concealer.

Or something.

I just… don’t want him to ask why I was crying.


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